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I am Leonie's mum, we lost her on her first ever holiday to North Wales, to the
evil uncaring illness called meningitis at a time when it was believed that a
rash had to appear but Leonie didn't have a rash so they treated her for
suspected concussion thinking she may of fell out of bed in the night so a
valuable 36 hours were lost and by the time the medical staff realised it wasn't
concussion it was too late, all the staff at Glan Clwyd Hospital were crying the
night it was realised she wasn't going to survive and through it all I had to
try to protect my other two children from the truth but also give them the
opportunity to say Goodbye to their baby sister. I will NEVER forget that night,
it broke my heart not only because my baby wasn't coming back but also that her
big sister and big brother thought they were saying goodbye because the visit
was over, they were at that time too young to know the truth, I wish I'd been
honest but at the time I didn't want to believe it myself it was goodbye. Leonie
made an impact on everyone because at that time her name wasn't as popular as it
is now and she really did look angellic and was the youngest organ donor at that
time in the UK. I took the decision to allow organ donation so she could, as it
turned out, help 3 other Mummy's to not feel the pain I was feeling - don't get
me wrong, in those 5 long days I had so many arguements going on inside me, The
biggest one was that Leonie was my baby and as a mum I didnt want them touching
her then the other part of me thought of other Mum's having to go through the
pain I was going through, I struggled with guilt for a long time after for
letting her be a donor but now I realise if it was me that was about to become
an Angel, Leonie would of allowed me to help others live - I miss her more and
more as time goes on because by now she would be 21 - if she was still here
would she be a mum herself? I would love to be able to see her again and hold
her close so I know how the other people on GTS feel when they lose their
precious children - It's devastating and leaves a hole in your heart and soul
that nothing can fill. I have 4 (should of been 5) beautiful Grand-children whom
I totally adore and I thank Leonie for watching over them for me, sadly Airon's
twin (my grandchild in heaven) didnt make it and became an Angel in the 13th
week of gestation but I'm sure Leonie will be looking after him (Airon & Elissa
almost became Angels that year too because of neglegence of hospital staff in 2
different hospitals but Thankfully I am able to have them here with us still - I
love them so much (All 4 of my grandchildren)- When Airons birth was iminent the
midwife told my daughter to stop being a drama queen (he was her 3rd child so
she knew she was about to give birth) He ended up being born on the floor just
about avoiding being born in my daughters leggings!!! And Elissa survived 19
days without water because the hospital told my daughter in law that she had
'just wet herself' even though she went to hospital the night her waters went,
they just sent her home and she thought nothing more cos it was her first baby
and remained in pain and discomfort for the next 19 days!!! - baby's need the
water to protect them and in order to survive!! Elissa was born natural delivery
but as soon as she was born they had to put anti-biotics in her - I have never
before in my life seen a baby born with the massive black eyes that Elissa had!!
Thank God that he (God) spared me the heartbreak of losing Airon & Elissa I have
also have 2 baby Angel's too - one in 1981 and one in 1991 - they were both in
the first 10 weeks of pregnancy I hope that they both know that I love them and
am so sorry that I did not get to know them - The baby in 1991 is called Ben - I
know that because a medium told me that Ben was clinging to my leg and running
round me and not letting me out of his sight and he had blonde curly hair - He
was about 4 years old at that point (1995) - she did not know anything about
what I had been through!! I will one day create a page for my 2 babies because
they are a part of me as much as my children that breathed.

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